[ Might have something to do with it, yes. Claiming he won't be dead for long isn't the comfort he might have thought; whether he returns or not, Saya wouldn't be the same. Even recalling his once-upon-a-time casually mentioning that he had died makes something twist inside her, despite that she heard it from his own lips, despite the way his arms are solid around her. If it happened because of her there would be no going back, not as overeager as she always is to sink into self blame. ]
[ If he could look inside her head right now, put a visual to her clumsy words, she thinks it might change his mind. He's offering comfort, and she only sees torment. And then there's the not inconsequential fact that it's taking a great deal of willpower not to tear his throat open. ]
Why? [ is all she manages to say, squeezing her flaring eyes closed and biting the inside of her cheek to keep everything else inside. Whichever part he assumes she's asking about will suffice, but she's specifically wondering if it's because Setsuna still sees her as the helpless hatching who needed him so desperately -- but then, given how she's close to raking open his shirt with her grip, perhaps she hasn't changed so much as she wants to believe. ]
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Date: 2021-11-03 07:57 pm (UTC)[ If he could look inside her head right now, put a visual to her clumsy words, she thinks it might change his mind. He's offering comfort, and she only sees torment. And then there's the not inconsequential fact that it's taking a great deal of willpower not to tear his throat open. ]
Why? [ is all she manages to say, squeezing her flaring eyes closed and biting the inside of her cheek to keep everything else inside. Whichever part he assumes she's asking about will suffice, but she's specifically wondering if it's because Setsuna still sees her as the helpless hatching who needed him so desperately -- but then, given how she's close to raking open his shirt with her grip, perhaps she hasn't changed so much as she wants to believe. ]