[That he knows what she's grappling with is somehow worse, because of course he'll offer, and she hasn't the strength to deny him. Maybe never has had it. Instead of shoving him off as she should, for both their sakes, she collapses against him, clinging. Why does everything have to be like this?]
[Doing the right thing would be the coldest possible comfort, and maybe she's just too selfish.]
You're -- such an idiot, [is what she finally says, her voice muffled in his chest. Telling him to just go away never works, because she can never bring herself to say the only thing that would work, a horrific lie that somehow feels more honorable than the truth.] They'll find a way to kill you just to break me. Or kill anyone who means anything to you. [Or they'll use me to do it, she can't manage to say. That would be, after all, the ultimate vengeance.]
I'm not worth it, Setsuna. [Part of her begs him to just take the out she's dangling, because even if it will break her anyway, at least it would be for some good. The rest of her clutches at his shirt and doesn't know how she'd ever let go.]
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Date: 2021-10-24 11:53 pm (UTC)[Doing the right thing would be the coldest possible comfort, and maybe she's just too selfish.]
You're -- such an idiot, [is what she finally says, her voice muffled in his chest. Telling him to just go away never works, because she can never bring herself to say the only thing that would work, a horrific lie that somehow feels more honorable than the truth.] They'll find a way to kill you just to break me. Or kill anyone who means anything to you. [Or they'll use me to do it, she can't manage to say. That would be, after all, the ultimate vengeance.]
I'm not worth it, Setsuna. [Part of her begs him to just take the out she's dangling, because even if it will break her anyway, at least it would be for some good. The rest of her clutches at his shirt and doesn't know how she'd ever let go.]